As Christmas Break rolls around, I thought I would write a post.
It has been quite a ride from the beginning of the year until now. Things began feeling normal about 2 months ago. Did I overreact in September? Did I stress for no reason? Probably, I don’t know. It’s looking up. Times like now remind me why I love teaching. I don’t know what second semester will bring as I will have three classes in 1 hour again. Thank you admin. I will worry about that later. For now I’m enjoying my time with these kids.
I feel like I’m getting a bit better at handling the classroom management. I get flustered the occasional time sometimes, but I recover by keeping a straight face. I’m not letting there be a chip on my shoulder. I’m leaving it at the moment and not letting it get me down in the day. Kids will say stupid things all the time so I will not let them drag me down because of it.
I’ve realized that it took a lot of time and practice to get to where I am with my classroom management. As I think about my internship days and how I thought it was such a big deal when I had my “first talk in the hallway” with a student. I’ve learned that in this workplace, you need to be quick on your feet to respond these students’ words. To be honest, I’d never thought I would get to where I am now.
I’ve been getting my prep for the next day done right after school so my time after supper is sort of my own time. It’s taken two and half years to finally get to that place where most of the prep work is done. And now I don’t need to be working 24 hours in a day. Sure I still have a ton of crap to do on my list but I’m not prepping for hours. This feels good. I was re-reading my first year posts and remembering how I was stressed with prepping every night. And the mentality that I had back then where I thought I would never get to relax and put my feet up for once.
2013 has taught me a lot about myself and my limits. I learned that I can juggle a lot at once, in terms of students and multiple curriculums in a given period. It also taught me that I am a capable teacher. I’m still not the best teacher out there but I know my stuff. I learned that sometimes the support you need isn’t always the support you want. And the support you turn to is the best vessel to get the frustrations out. I need to reflect more on my practices and my daily struggles or I won’t remember how I handled those stressful situations.
This year I got to meet a whole bunch of great math teachers from around the world who enjoy being connected with one another. It’s a shame I can’t try some of these great things I find because of the rural school I’m in. But you know being in a rural school has taught me that “juggling” skill. So when I do get that single class with no splits it will be a breeze.
And my finally reality check this year, sometimes you just gotta suck it up. Start the next day fresh and leave it be to try and make a good day. Cause no one will be there to sweep that stress under the rug for you, so you just have to face it and learn from it.
To the new year. Here’s to hoping. 2014, bring it.